sometimes i just cant express out my feelings x(
i dont know .. i just cant .. `shrugs ..
didnt feel good for the past few days ..
maybe bcos of the mye results ? probably ..

didnt do well as i expect myself too ..
subjects that i expect to score well didnt turn out to be .. well .. good ..
subjects i thought i wld fail happened to be a pass ..
so .. isnt a good or bad thing ?
i only flunked my e-maths paper .. D7 .. `sheesh ...
it's damn embarassing to be the only 5 ppl to flunk the papers in class ..
few subjects i wanted to score well turns out to be lousier ..
WHAT THE HECK !?
both my A2 are gone .. chinese and chemistry ..
other subjects are just border line passes .. UBER BAD !!
all the Cs six and five .. disappointment ..

2 months left .. maybe even lesser .. before prelims starts ..
i wonder how to start my revision .. where to start ..
there are still some unfinished chapters to be learned in a few subjects .
but clearly i know that i must start practising on maths .. deadly subject for me x(
english and chinese depends on my reading ..
social studies and history .. i have to memorise and improve on my source-based skills .
pure geography .. read up notes ..
physics .. more practices .. chemistry .. do more structure qns ..
see ! so many work to be done .. i dont knw if i cld cope ... =/
i wish to stop my tuition .. since i always pon .. especially physics lessons .. xD
i reckon i shld focus more my maths .. `sighh ..
this mye results really a disappointment .. i did work hard .. maybe not hard enough ?
well .. i dunno .. i also dont want this kind of lousy results .. who wants ?
shiity results .. ughhh ... !$#%$#%^&

had nightmares recently .. not really those scary kinds .. monsters and stuffs ..
but just weird and surprising ?? like unexpected sorts .. well .. it's scary to me ..
im still feeling a bit tighted up .. stress ? just not so relax .. =/
though i dont really like to be alone .. sometimes i just need some quiet moments ..
my temper isnt good and getting quite emotional recently .. that's badd .. seriously ..
actually there's much more to pen down .. but i just cant express myself .. =/
sometimes i dont even understand myself .. dont even say you people .. hurhur ..
i wonder where's ME .. out of the world .. roaming around ? `ponders

seeing someone sitting alone .. keeping e'rything to oneself .. trying to shut his world from others
one who doesnt feel like communicate to anyone .. just left alone .. what would you do ?
one might looked strong from outside .. but in actual .. one is very vulnerable inside .. sadly .. no one seems to know .. well .. a couple might know .. but one feels they are ignorant .. very much one wld want to be alone .. however .. he yearns to be cared .. to be given a listening ear .. a shoulder to cry on .. to his disappointment .. he found no one .. at least he thought so .. tried consoling himself ; maybe others are aware but just like him .. they dont knw how to express 'emselves .. or it's just afraid to face the reality of humans' coldness and insensitivity .. ? sometimes .. he just dont knw how to react .. afraid that e'rything he does might be a disaster ..
one thought and tried to move on .. somehow he doesnt know how to .. ended up being stucked ..
maybe one is in need of helping hand .. or really just his way of thinking .. only himself cld pick himself up ? big question mark ...

open up to others .. share his world with others .. pick himself up and move on .. ??
continue to be a perfectionist .. living in his own world .. and say goodbye .. ??